myStraNger

January-

i thought this is new year! hahaha! same old person… new? nothings new, better to call it worst than last year… *sigh

judging on the first month of the year, it sucks…

anger, bitterness, i have enough.

Lately, nararamdaman ko pa din sila, maybe im the one who’s holding them so tight, hindi ko naman masisi ang sarili ko, i learned so much on that experience and now parang part pa din, hindi na siguro mag babago, prang pako na nakabaon and someone’s still hammering.

im not entertaining any kind of these anymore, so please do not push me into my limits.

i must do something before its too late…

—

listening on my breaking glass ringtone

puzzled:

Plastic People

Carry me home away from all these things
That keep deceiving me
I’m all alone nowhere no one
To show me where to go
Take my money wear my shirt
Using me to do your dirt
Judging me when all the time
You’re the one that did the crime
Someone tell me what’s the truth
Save the children, save the youth
What about our hopes and dreams
You’re not what you really seem oh

[Chorus]
Nation of the plastic people
Here’s the church and here’s its people
Preaching good and doing evil
Trying to treat you less than equal
Saying this and meaning that
Twisting up into your back
Don’t be cast into the sequel
Living in a nation of plastic people (plastic people)

[Verse 2]
You’re just like a rose I wanna grow
So I can serve my purpose here
I wanna fly before I die
Be like a bird and touch the sky
Take my home, and take my name
Generation cellophane
There’s no difference all the same
I don’t know when I’m ashamed
Can you walk inside my shoes?
Don’t be mad if I refuse
Artificial attributes,
Different leaders same old news

[Chorus]

[Verse 3]
What do you know,
It’s a situation begging for salvation
Looking to the sky to answer to all my frustration
There’s a choice I’m making
And there’s a chance I’ll take it
It’s the only life I got to live so I can’t fake it
Yeeaahhh
Ohhhh

Generation.
Desperaton.
Demonstration.
Provocation.
Population.
Segregation.
Isolation.
Suffocation.
Degradation.
Desolation.
Living in a plastic nation.

[Chorus]

Generation.
Desperaton.
Demonstration.
Provocation.
Population.
Segregation.
Isolation.
Suffocation.
Destination of the nation.
Generation.
Desolation.
Living in a plastic nation.
Living in a plastic nation.

My life is brilliant.

My life is brilliant.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I’m sure.
She smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won’t lose no sleep on that,
‘Cause I’ve got a plan.

You’re beautiful. You’re beautiful.
You’re beautiful, it’s true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don’t know what to do,
‘Cause I’ll never be with you.

Yeah, she caught my eye,
As we walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was,
Fucking high,
And I don’t think that I’ll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.

You’re beautiful. You’re beautiful.
You’re beautiful, it’s true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don’t know what to do,
‘Cause I’ll never be with you.
You’re beautiful. You’re beautiful.
You’re beautiful, it’s true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it’s time to face the truth,
I will never be with you.

Father oh father
Hear me if you can
Is it true what they say
That life is a dream
I dont understand
The things that make rain in my eyes
Are they real or are they lies

You know I hear so much about you now
Id give anything
To go on a little boat with you
Talk about the scheme of things
On a little boat with you

Father oh father
Guide me if you can
Or give me the chance to follow you home
I am your son but I wish I knew you
When you were young
Were you lonely as a boy

You know Id give so much to see you now
Id go anywhere
Pick a little stick and walk with you
Talk about the scheme of things
On a short walk with you

Father oh father
You give me just a little hope
I feel something out there reaching for me
Well here I am
Wont you take me with you
Out of this maze
And away from this place

Because it gets so cold and lonely here
Ill do anything
To sit on a little rock with you
Talk about the scheme of things
On a small rock with you

Show me show me show me the way
Before they grind me down
And bleach me grey
Send me power not to be afraid
And when I close my eyes
Let me see you once in the light

Father oh father
Heal me if you can
Is it true what they say
That life is a dream

-someday, in God’s blessings, i want to be a father, so that i can feel how great being father is, i want to have child that i can share my stories, i want to have my own family… great job pa! to all father’s in der HAPPY FATHERS DAY!!!and also to our HEAVENLY FATHER…

one more kiss could be the best thing
one more lie could be the worst
and all these thoughts are never resting
and you’re not something i deserve

in my head there’s only you now
this world falls on me
in this world, there’s real and make believe
this seems real to me

you love me, but you dont know who i am
i’m torn between this life i lead
and where i stand
you love me, but you don’t know who i am
so let me go
let me go

i dream we head to what i hope for
and i turn my back on loving you
how could this love be a good thing
when i know what i’m going through

in my head there’s only you now
this world falls on me
in this world, there’s real and make believe
this seems real to me

you love me, but you dont know who i am
i’m torn between this life i lead
and where i stand
you love me, but you dont know who i am
so let me go, just let me go

no matter how hard i try
i cant escape these things inside
i know, i know
but all the pieces fall apart
you will be the only one who knows
who knows

you love me, but you dont know who i am
i’m torn between this life i lead
and where i stand,
you love me, but you don’t know who i am
so let me go
just let me go

you love me, but you dont
you love me, but you dont
you love me, but you dont know who i am

you love me, but you dont
you love me, but you dont
you love me, but you dont know me…

-beh- (5/16/07-6/9/07)

happy Mother’s day!!! even ur far frm me i still want u to feel im close to u…  thank u for d unconditional love… thank u for all u’ve done for me… for all mother’s out der specially my mom i dedicate this song for all of u……

A Mother’s Prayer

I pray you’ll be my eyes
And watch her where she goes
And help her to be wise
Help me to let go

Every mother’s prayer
Every child knows
Lead her to a place
Guide her with your grace
To a place where she’ll be safe

I pray she finds your light
And holds it in her heart
As darkness falls each night
Remind her where you are

Every mother’s prayer
Every child knows
Need to find a place
Guide her with your grace
Give her faith so she’ll be safe

Lead her to a place
Guide her with your grace
To a place where she’ll be safe

iloveumom…

dami nangyari hahays…

hmmm pruning? trials? patience? obedience?

- sometimes, i cannot help myself… sigh T__T

thanks kuya ian for everything for keeping me calm last night for teaching me what to do…

-what is my hearts deepest desire?

well dagdagan pa natin

-even what they have done to me or to you, GOD will just ask us …

-did ur character get lost?

-did ur faith get lost?

-did ur salvation get lost?

-what???

Blessed Be Your Name
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Blessed Be Your Name
In the land that is plentiful
Where Your streams of abundance flow
Blessed be Your name

Blessed Be Your name
When I'm found in the desert place
Though I walk through the wilderness
Blessed Be Your name

Every blessing You pour out
I'll turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say

Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name

Blessed be Your name
When the sun's shining down on me
When the world's 'all as it should be'
Blessed be Your name

Blessed be Your name
On the road marked with suffering
Though there's pain in the offering
Blessed be Your name

Every blessing You pour out
I'll turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say

Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name

Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name

You give and take away
You give and take away
My heart will choose to say
Lord, blessed be Your name

-every song here has a meaning… puzzled? hehe =p

-what’s that?!

is that "hi" or a "goodbye" ???

I wish I had what I needed
To be on my own
‘Cause I feel so defeated
And I’m feeling alone

And it all seems so helpless
And I have no plans
I’m a plane in the sunset
With nowhere to land

And all I see
It could never make me happy
And all my sand castles
Spend their time collapsing

Let me know that You hear me
Let me know Your touch
Let me know that You love me
And let that be enough

It’s my birthday tomorrow
No one here could know
I was born this Thursday
22 years ago

And I feel stuck
Watching history repeating
Yeah, who am I?
Just a kid who knows he’s needy

Let me know that You hear me
Let me know Your touch
Let me know that You love me
And let that be enough

I’m afraid it’s been too long to try to find the reasons why
I let my world close in around a smaller patch of fading sky
But now I’ve grown beyond the walls to where I’ve never been
And it’s still winter in my wonderland

Chorus
I’m waiting for the world to fall
I’m waiting for the scene to change
I’m waiting when the colors come
I’m waiting to let my world come undone

I close my eyes and try to see the world unbroken underneath
The farther off and already it just might make the life I lead
A little more than make-believe when all my skies are painted blue
And the clouds don’t ever change the shape of who I am to You

Chorus
I’m waiting for the world to fall
I’m waiting for the scene to change
I’m waiting when the colors come
I’m waiting to let my world come undone

When I catch the light of falling stars my view is changing me
My view is changing me

I’m waiting

- la lang pinanuod ko ulit narnia =D